Pinned toot

#intro: content & cw 

I try to cw a lot.
If you need me to cw something specific, let me know.
If I forgot an important cw & you want me to repost with the cw, let me know.

I use a lot of emojis :blob_cat_coffee:
I try to limit them to 1 or 2 per toot max.
If you're using a screen reader & follow me, let me know how I can make things easier for you.

I'm over 18 and I might retoot some nsfw art occasionally.

If something is bad for you in the way I post, let me know & I'll see what I can do!

Pinned toot

#intro: chronic illness & medical diet info 

So I'm chronically ill™ with an auto immune kidney disease named IgA nephropathy.
I was diagnosed & started treatment in 08.2020.
The main impacts on my life atm are tons of meds, monitoring my vitals, I need to eat every 3-4 hours or I crash down & minor mood & energy impacts.

My medical diet is basically vegan (+ egg whites), no salt, low phosphorus & potassium (no potatoes, leafy greens, full grains).

I'm open to discuss it atm.

Pinned toot

Selfie, eye contact 

My trashboi aesthetic is p e a k i n g 🔥

// first selfies posted here hello!

Loke ✨ boosted
Loke ✨ boosted
Loke ✨ boosted

I hope everyone enjoys a bisexual bisexuality day :heart_bi:

Loke ✨ boosted

Me: low tech aesthetic 😍😍
Also me: buys a rice cooker with 10 different buttons :blob_cat_pats:

Food (vegan), witchcraft 

Completely forgot Mabon was today, but had a very Mabon day?
Took a walk in the park & saw some cool mushrooms, cooked some more mushrooms, cleaned the house & had a very hygge evening with Stardew Valley, candles and fairy lights :autumnleaf6: :blob_cat_snug:
Thought about witchcraft a lot & started to make plans for Kekri (Halloween), and while looking something up I realized it was Mabon 😅 I guess I just vibed it :witches_town:

Why do I have to work today, I just want to bake and watch Fruit Basket or something 😂 😭

Food / Vegan, new recipe on my blog 

Creamy mushroom pastas 🍄 🍝
Vegan, easy and delicious!

shelflife.travel.blog/2020/09/

Loke ✨ boosted

Si vous êtes contre la liberté des femmes à porter le voile, alors vous êtes contre la liberté des femmes à se vêtir comme elles le veulent. Vous êtes antiféministe.
C’est aussi simple que ça.

Loke ✨ boosted

Quelqu'un saurait m'aider à trouver les comptes Mastodon des personnes qui ont créé ce truc? Boost requis 🖤

Show thread

money, gifts 

R's aunt just sent us some money yesterday to get ourselves some books 😍
We haven't bought books in a looong time bcs we get everything from our library, but there's a few books that were important for us & that we wanted to have at home so this was the perfect occasion!
Spoiler alert: they're all queer books :heart_eyes_cat_lgbti:
Placed the order already & hopefully they'll arrive soon :blob_cat_heart:
Gotta love your communist relatives :ancom:

Medical update 

So yeah, that's about it!
Some bad news, some good news, some chaotic relationship news that ended up to be not as awful as I first thought they would be!
I'm feeling ok today, except... super tired :blob_melt: At least it's Friday so I can look forward to the weekend!
Thanks for reading y'all :blob_cat_heart:

Show thread

Medical update, lying, chaotic relationship with my mum 

She sent me a copy of the text she sent to a few people this morning (if she did?) which basically said "We had a talk & I need to clarify that the situation is serious and that [they] are very close to kidney failure & that even if there's always hope, it does look like transplant will be needed soon as the situation is critical". So a bit dramatic lol but I'd rather that than people coming to me saying I'm doing great ahah.

Show thread

Medical update, lying, chaotic relationship with my mum 

I'm glad she seemed very open to talk about this, even though I can't trust everything she says, and I'm relieved it doesn't seem she was openly lying and in denial about things.

Show thread

Medical update, lying, chaotic relationship with my mum 

Messages were like "Things aren't going well and the treatment is stagnating, but [they] accepted to take the vitamins so at least that's positive and I'm hopeful for the future" type of thing.
We agreed that she needs to balance her communication to make sure that people understand things aren't very positive so they don't come back to me thinking everything is good.

Show thread

Medical update, lying, chaotic relationship with my mum 

I wrote the previous toots earlier today & now I've called her about this.
She listened to me, & she actually read me some of the messages she sent (can't be sure she was truthful with those but yeah) & it seems that basically she gave people both good & bad news but that most people got blindsided & chose to only look at the good news?
Also bcs she tried to keep a positive tone even with the bad news it can be confusing.

Show thread

Medical update, lying & gaslighting (?), chaotic relationship with my mum 

Like I'm working hard to accept that I'm sick & that things will probably get worse before they get better & to not blind myself to the truth. And to have her telling everybody that I'm JUST GREAT is not helping at all.
It's negating my feelings, and it hurts, and it's not giving me any space to grieve.
And to have to correct people who think there's good news is exhausting, like taking a puppy away from them 🙄 Ugh.

Show thread

Medical update, lying & gaslighting (?), chaotic relationship with my mum 

And since then I've been receiving messages from our family like "Oh so I heard your mum had excellent news about your health!" and I'm like WHAT.
My mum is a liar and it especially comes out when she needs to protect herself so I'm not surprised but it fucking hurts.
This is not helping & it makes me feel like I'm being gaslit (?).
I'm calling her this morning to tell her about this & ask for an explanation.

Show thread

Medical update, chaotic relationship with my mum 

The thing that is upsetting me the most though is that after the doctor's meeting I immediately called my mum for moral support & she took it pretty chill, and at the same time I finally agreed to take the vitamins she'd been pushing on me since my diagnostic & she just focused on that & was super happy. Like I was clearly upset & she literally answered "Ah well I just feel very happy that you'll take the stuff!", like thanks but read the room.

Show thread
Show more
Eldritch Café

Une instance se voulant accueillante pour les personnes queers, féministes et anarchistes ainsi que pour leurs sympathisant·e·s. Nous sommes principalement francophones, mais vous êtes les bienvenu·e·s quelle que soit votre langue.

A welcoming instance for queer, feminist and anarchist people as well as their sympathizers. We are mainly French-speaking people, but you are welcome whatever your language might be.