idk if this is bpd but
My partner went out of town on what I’ll just have to call a business trip on Tuesday. He was supposed to come back today but now he’s not coming back until tomorrow. I know it seems small but my whole day is ruined now. The trip wasn’t planned well and has been a mess plus I’m dealing with all this family stuff still. That was my one thing to look forward to and now...
Anxiety is just like a really shitty superpower. Exhibit A: you think of all the ways something could go wrong so you plan for the most likely outcomes. People around you get annoyed when you warn them of things only to turn around & say they shouldn’t listened later. The phrase “you always think you’re right” is used frequently as if you actually like being right.
just...avert your gaze cuz this isn’t pretty but I need to vent
& there’s so much more to this, like the fact that she’s here because her, my aunt and uncle were getting evicted because they refuse to help her pay rent. & they actually live some states away so my brother had to go all the way there to even get her here. Like wtf is life right now??
just...avert your gaze cuz this isn’t pretty but I need to vent
Regardless of the fact that this is super triggering because of how my dad was when he was alive (& This isn’t even his mom lol), I will be forcing her to get up and eat something tomorrow or my mom is going to take her to the hospital. I am just completely over this shit. Like I love my family but this shit is TOO much.
just...avert your gaze cuz this isn’t pretty but I need to vent
So...my mother gave in yesterday and got the grandma a bottle of liquor. Today, I had her, my little cousin, & the little girl I tutor. She refused to eat at all and she’s been basically asleep all day except for when she’s gotten up to use the bathroom. I chewed my mom out for buying her the liquor yesterday because she can never say no. I love her but she is such an enabler and now she’s extremely concerned about her.
My uncle’s crazy ass girlfriend called my grandmother sweet and this was like the highest confirmation that she’s looney tunes. There are a lot of words you could use to describe my granny but sweet?? Only thing sweet about miss ma’am is her voice while calling you fat & basically telling you you ain’t shit unless you brought her liquor. 🤷🏾♀️
family shit/ alc mention again
Also, my grandma broke into my extra room the other night to try to steal alcohol. She has done this before so I’m not surprised, that’s why we hid it in the first place. But I really want to put some cameras up so I can be like ...”this you?! This you?! You think I’m fuckin stupid huh?”
Just once.
She also asked me when I’m getting married like?? If people don’t stop asking me about babies and marriage imma black out. Can I get a JOB?!?!
28. she/they. black af. queer af.